2. It is the second time in my life that I lost my dearest watch.
3. Although I am not someone who would really cry over a lost material, I just feel so sorrow because both watches have sentimental values to me.
4. The first one, was something really meaningful.
5. I was just speechless. I could not even talk about it again. I could not even describe how meaningful it was to me.
6. It was a 20 years-old watch inherited from my father.
7. A gold watch, bought by my father when he was at University.
8. I couldn't tell how happy I was when he gave it to me.
9. I had an unimaginable childhood in which I spent my high school just to impress my father.
10. Because he was so strict and busy that I can count how many times he taught me about life.
11. I was desperate to seek acknowledgement from my father, so when he inherited his watch, I was just so happy.
12. But it was about 5 years ago, I lost that watch at my friend's house.
13. I kept it as a secret because it was so meaningful to me, that it is hard for me to talk about it.
14. Because if I am to tell the story on how I lost that watch, that hurtful memory will scratch again.
15. I spent some times without a watch until my sister gave me one.
16. And a few years later I bought one and my late maternal grandfather inherited another one the last time I met him before he passed away.
17. I could not fit those watches really well. The one gave by my sister, I kept it in a safe place while the other inherited by my late grandfather was fortunately without chains so I could not wear it.
18. The watch that I bought, I don't really like it.
19. Until my future wife gave me one. It was so dearest and meaningful to me.
20. I could forget the hurtful memory about my father's watch.
21. I wore it with pride and love, for a few months until this morning.
22. I went to Seoul Central Mosque for Fajr prayer after a very long exhausted journey.
23. My mind was just half awake.
24. I forgot to take my watch I left after I finished using the toilet.
25. And I woke up this morning finding I was so careless and half awake that I forgot to take my watch.
26. I was speechless again.
27. It was really a traumatic experience.
28. My heart went blank. I just can't have the feeling to wear another watch again. Ever.
29. Only a picture of that watch can I keep, it was a beautiful memory though, Mia Nanaz.
30. A beautiful name I just made up for you, I hope you will forever be in my heart. Rest in peace.
"Kenangan Semalam, Senandung Semalam"
Heartbroken,
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